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♪ ♪

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[sighs deeply]

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[sniffles, exhales]

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[sobs]

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[exhales]

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[sighs]

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♪ ♪

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[insects trilling]

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["Dedicated to You"
by John Coltrane playing]

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<i>♪ If I should write ♪</i>

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<i>♪ A book for you ♪</i>

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<i>♪ That brought me fame ♪</i>

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<i>♪ And fortune, too ♪</i>

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<i>♪ That book would be... ♪</i>

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[sighs]

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You can't be here.

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Lois, please come sit.

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Please.

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Redd, would you come out
and sit as well?

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She's making her famous, uh,
Cincinnati chili

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and lavender lemonade.

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We-we weren't sure

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where you were
with your sobriety, but--

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so we have options.

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Cincinnati what?

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Chili. It's, um...

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the secret is cinnamon
and unsweetened chocolate, yes?

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- And Worcestershire sauce.
- Oh.

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[Redd]
And of course, mild cheddar.

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- The sharp doesn't melt right.
- Mmm.

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- Good?
- That's good.

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- Mmm. Mmm.
- Great!

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What the fuck is
this freak show?

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[rattling]

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Come. Come, come. Come sit.

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I'll make you something.

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Now, please, just hear me out.

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Admittedly,
we have screwed a lot up.

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We haven't been guardians
of our good fortune,

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such as the miracle
of your recovery.

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There's so much good,

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so much worth holding on to.

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Like?

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Cheers, honey.

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A structure.
A foundation. A history.

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Merritt may well be finding
happiness of, uh, of some sort,

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but I think she still needs us.

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She needs a united front.

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Let's follow the example

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of the young.

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Let's all live together.

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Marshall, are you insane?

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We've served each other
divorce papers--

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Nothing is final yet.

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You said you hated me!
[laughs]

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So what? Me, you,

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and the gourmet madam,

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we all gonna share
the same bed or what?

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Oh, well, no, uh, no.
That's, that's not exactly it.

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- And not,
not that I'm not fluid--
- No, no, no.

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That part of us...
[chuckling]

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That part of us-- you and I--

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- is over.
- [Redd chuckles] Marshall thinks

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that he and I should move
into the guest room

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and you should stay
where you are.

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And you're all right with this?

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Well, I did live
in a commune... [chuckles]

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...for a couple of months
in the 1980s.

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And... well, none of us are
getting any younger,

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no spring chickens here.
[laughs]

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And I do like cooking
for a crowd.

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The old ways don't work anymore.
Th-There must be new paradigms.

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I love you.

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I do not hate you.

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One says things in life,
but... family.

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Ed, your affair with Ed,

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everything we've done
to each other...

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Fuck.

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Don't tell me
I am still in a coma

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and I'm dreaming?

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Am I?

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[chuckling]
No.

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[chuckling]

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You gaslit me for years.

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Let me be clear, Marshall.

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I intend to move forward
with this divorce

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smoothly and efficiently.

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I don't want to love
or hate you.

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I just want to be at peace
with what you are.

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But, Lois,
we have an opportunity

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to do something deep,

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- something-something better.
- [shushing]

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Marshall, I told you
she wouldn't go for this.

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You know, women our age,
we can't forgive these things.

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Please, Lois.

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[sighs] I need
both of you so badly.

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Accountability is everything.

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Please.

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Just...

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Jesus. Go.

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Just go.

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[door opens]

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[door slams]

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♪ ♪

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How the fuck did I end up
in this terrible desert town?

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- But...
- [stammers] It offers nothing.

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Nothing!

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I mean, there's no, there's
no decent proper movie theatre,

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there's-- If you want a bagel,
good luck.

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And th-there's not even
a decent florist.

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[stammers] I thought
you liked silence.

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I hate it!

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What's that about?

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And I think I hate you, too,
a little bit,

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you know, just to be
perfectly frank.

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Yeah. God.

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Yeah, I suppose
this is the moment

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that I-I-I tell you, yeah.

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Tell me?

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I know. I know.

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I know it now

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because I suspected
and I found out.

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Why did you seduce me
if you didn't really want me?

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What are you talking about?

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Oh, oh, stop.

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[laughing]

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[mocking]
Oh, what are you talking about?

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One of the women came to see me.

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And she'd spoken to several
other faculty wives.

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Yeah, I do hope
you find some way

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of, you know, addressing
this compulsion.

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- Fucking in--
- Y-You should know. I fight it.

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For many, many years,
I-I believed in a moral code.

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No, but we now know

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that such a thing
does not matter.

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Wh-What? So-so now
you just take whatever you want?

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But hear me. Hear me here.

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This plan that you just
presented to Lois,

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I only went along with it
for one reason.

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Which is?

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I knew she'd turn you down.

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And I wanted to be present

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for your final humiliation.

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[inhales]

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Oh, geez, I've got to get
to the club.

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I've got to get
those girls in shape.

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Their pasties keep falling off

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and I don't think
it's an accident.

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♪ ♪

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I have so much love to share.
I love you.

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- I love my wife.
- I know.

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But...

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I'll give you
till the end of the week,

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and then I want you gone.

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It will be like
you never happened.

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Kind of a bad dream.

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Which is meant to be forgotten.

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♪ ♪

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[Marshall]
But maybe the management
of our terror has been

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unequal to the task?
Like during the end of days

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of the Roman empire, we too face
insurmountable obstacles,

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internal decay
and external pressure.

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And economically,

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economically growing
inequality and instability.

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Rome used slave labor.

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Well, we do too, really.

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Does that sound familiar?

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Because they too had
environmental collapse.

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Rome's moral decline is
just like today's.

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We-we-we see it all around us.
We see it all around us.

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No moral coherence
or consequences.

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Add to that cyber warfare

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and a cascade
of global conflicts

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we insist on meddling in,
and ladies and gentlemen,

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welcome to Ancient Rome!

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[door closes]

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And, uh...

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just like Rome...

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...we still cling to our...

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...outmoded modes of how to be.

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Our small gods,

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our prayers...

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...the very ways
we manage our terror...

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...they did no good
in Ancient Rome

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and they do no good here today.

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It's every...

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every man for themselves.

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Thank you, class.
That... that's it for today.

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I-I need this space,
I need to talk

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to these fine officers
that are coming here today.

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Thank you. Thank you so much.

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[door opens]

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[Hanover]
Professor.

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Hi.

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[door shuts]

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Hello, Chief.
W-What can I do for you?

197
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Professor, a student of yours,
Mary Colsby,

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has made a very serious charge
against you.

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Against me?

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Sexual assault.

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Is this Ms. Colsby?

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Y-Yes. Yes.

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Uh-- Gale, look,

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Ms. Colsby and I had
a relationship,

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but it was as consenting adults.

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Uh-- there was no assault,

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much less a rape.

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And we even parted
on-on good terms.

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[chuckles]
Uh... this is not true.

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She has a very
different account.

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And we have to ask you
to come downtown with us.

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A-Am-- am I under arrest?

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Marshall, I am not cuffing you
and not making a spectacle,

214
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but you are in custody, yes.

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Wh-- What...

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W-What about my work?
My-my teaching?

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My-my-my job?

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W-What's gonna happen to me?

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I think if the past is
any indication, you'll be fired.

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What about my word?
W-What, my...

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D-Don't I have a say in t-th...

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- I-I'm gonna fight this.
- You will have the chance to.

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I-I will. This is,
this is just another instance

224
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of a Black man being strung up
on the word of a woman.

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Th-- Uh, no, no.
Look, look. Look.

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My texts.

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The texts. Look. Look.

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Listen: "Marshall,
I'm glad we can remain friends,

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"you did the right thing,
and you were gracious

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"and kind in doing it.

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It makes me love you more."

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Does-does that sound
like something

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y-you'd send to a rapist?
But look, here's-- look:

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"Marshall,
I'm free between classes.

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Do you want to meet for coffee?"

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Does that? Or-or "Marshall,
I need your advice

237
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"on which modern history
professor you like.

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- Is Hartley okay?"
- And yet, we have her account

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and the D.A. decided
to go ahead.

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- And I tend to believe women
in these matters.
- [Marshall] Megan.

241
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I am sorry.

242
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Megan...

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It's addiction, isn't it?

244
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Addiction? S-Stop. Wait.

245
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Y-You have these-these,
uh, pathologies

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that you don't have
the slightest understanding

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of what you're saying.

248
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T-The, the-- Everyone's
an amateur shrink these days.

249
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You cannot continue to destroy
people's lives in this manner.

250
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Megan, is there
something you can do?

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[stammers]

252
00:15:17,067 --> 00:15:20,405
How many times have you dined
at our house? Uh...

253
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Meg-Megan.

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Marshall, call your lawyer.

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[receding]
We're gonna print you

256
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and we're gonna take a picture

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and you'll be home by dinner.

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♪ ♪

259
00:15:33,399 --> 00:15:35,504
[indistinct radio chatter]

260
00:15:45,456 --> 00:15:48,028
You're being released
on your own recognizance.

261
00:15:50,667 --> 00:15:53,004
I suggest you find
some sort of help.

262
00:15:53,005 --> 00:15:54,240
You need it.

263
00:15:56,445 --> 00:15:57,748
[door opens]

264
00:15:59,451 --> 00:16:01,254
[Marshall]
<i>It makes no sense to pretend</i>

265
00:16:01,255 --> 00:16:06,064
<i>to be some ancient stoic
enduring what comes,</i>

266
00:16:06,065 --> 00:16:10,406
<i>when all my choices have led me
to this dark wood.</i>

267
00:16:11,308 --> 00:16:14,480
<i>It makes no sense
to try and salvage</i>

268
00:16:14,481 --> 00:16:17,019
<i>the marriage, the career.</i>

269
00:16:17,020 --> 00:16:20,793
<i>The stain of my mistakes
cannot be expunged,</i>

270
00:16:20,794 --> 00:16:26,639
<i>like the woman in the play
who said, "Out, damn spot."</i>

271
00:16:26,640 --> 00:16:31,749
<i>When a man of my generation,
color, is marked,</i>

272
00:16:31,750 --> 00:16:35,088
<i>the expulsion from the world
of the living</i>

273
00:16:35,089 --> 00:16:37,326
<i>is all that is left.</i>

274
00:16:39,297 --> 00:16:41,602
<i>I might be remembered</i>

275
00:16:41,603 --> 00:16:44,708
<i>for some small bit of good,
I hope.</i>

276
00:16:44,709 --> 00:16:47,514
<i>I love so many people, so much.</i>

277
00:16:47,515 --> 00:16:50,486
<i>How it hurts to disappoint them.</i>

278
00:16:53,627 --> 00:16:58,769
<i>I suppose this is the last proof
that I am indeed, still,</i>

279
00:16:58,770 --> 00:17:01,107
<i>for a few minutes at least,</i>

280
00:17:01,108 --> 00:17:05,082
<i>still a member
of the human race.</i>

281
00:17:27,360 --> 00:17:29,798
[Marshall]
Am I dead?

282
00:17:29,799 --> 00:17:31,669
[Redd]
Well, let's see.

283
00:17:31,670 --> 00:17:33,740
[monitor beeping steadily]

284
00:17:39,652 --> 00:17:41,221
No.

285
00:17:43,860 --> 00:17:46,497
Trazodone and Ambien can,
of course, do the trick,

286
00:17:46,498 --> 00:17:50,172
but in a man your size,
with a full stomach...

287
00:17:50,173 --> 00:17:54,246
And, luckily, you were low
on your prescriptions.

288
00:17:54,247 --> 00:17:55,717
I found you.

289
00:17:55,718 --> 00:17:58,656
They pumped your stomach, and...

290
00:17:58,657 --> 00:18:00,860
yeah, here we are.

291
00:18:01,863 --> 00:18:04,100
Was it a cry for help?

292
00:18:05,436 --> 00:18:07,473
Or a real attempt?

293
00:18:09,912 --> 00:18:15,222
Nothing has changed
between us, Marshall.

294
00:18:15,223 --> 00:18:17,627
I know about the arrest.

295
00:18:20,901 --> 00:18:22,704
How?

296
00:18:22,705 --> 00:18:25,476
This is not a large city.

297
00:18:29,250 --> 00:18:31,522
Your daughter's here.
I called her.

298
00:18:31,523 --> 00:18:33,224
[grunts]

299
00:18:33,225 --> 00:18:35,495
[weakly]
I don't want to see her.

300
00:18:35,496 --> 00:18:37,867
Oh, what you want
is beside the point.

301
00:18:37,868 --> 00:18:40,907
You've made your position clear.

302
00:18:40,908 --> 00:18:43,512
Sometimes I think
it's brave to leave.

303
00:18:43,513 --> 00:18:46,819
It's no achievement to stay
if you hate this party.

304
00:18:46,820 --> 00:18:50,860
But it's also, it's terribly
cowardly at the same time.

305
00:18:50,861 --> 00:18:54,801
My understanding of philosophy

306
00:18:54,802 --> 00:18:59,845
made me accept the nothingness
that is to come.

307
00:18:59,846 --> 00:19:01,949
Which you would have poured
all over your daughter,

308
00:19:01,950 --> 00:19:04,654
drenched her in it,
you selfish man.

309
00:19:04,655 --> 00:19:07,192
[monitor beeping steadily]

310
00:19:07,193 --> 00:19:10,265
And now, you've taken away
everyone's choice.

311
00:19:12,838 --> 00:19:15,342
We can only be angry
and grateful

312
00:19:15,343 --> 00:19:18,682
and angry and grateful
until we are not.

313
00:19:18,683 --> 00:19:20,285
[Redd sniffling]

314
00:19:24,929 --> 00:19:28,335
I'll give you a few days
to get your things and get out.

315
00:19:40,025 --> 00:19:44,601
I don't have
anything left to say...

316
00:19:46,572 --> 00:19:48,475
...other than...

317
00:19:50,446 --> 00:19:53,318
...I apologize...

318
00:19:55,524 --> 00:19:57,694
...for what's left of my self.

319
00:19:59,965 --> 00:20:02,504
The so-called self.

320
00:20:11,021 --> 00:20:14,360
Dad, listen to me.

321
00:20:14,361 --> 00:20:16,364
Just listen.

322
00:20:16,365 --> 00:20:19,036
You are the only father
that I have.

323
00:20:19,037 --> 00:20:21,942
But you make it really hard

324
00:20:21,943 --> 00:20:23,846
for me to still want
to know you.

325
00:20:25,382 --> 00:20:27,587
But I-I do.

326
00:20:29,592 --> 00:20:32,531
I don't know
how to turn off loving you.

327
00:20:34,535 --> 00:20:37,507
I don't want to see a world
without you in it.

328
00:20:37,508 --> 00:20:39,878
I have so much life to come.

329
00:20:39,879 --> 00:20:41,748
Like, so much.

330
00:20:41,749 --> 00:20:43,318
Children.

331
00:20:43,319 --> 00:20:45,657
Pain, love.

332
00:20:46,626 --> 00:20:48,261
Fear.

333
00:20:49,097 --> 00:20:51,000
A crazy mother.

334
00:20:53,005 --> 00:20:54,039
Please.

335
00:20:54,040 --> 00:20:57,714
Please try to think of a time

336
00:20:57,715 --> 00:20:59,584
that's gonna be better
than this moment.

337
00:20:59,585 --> 00:21:01,889
[sniffles] It's possible.

338
00:21:02,858 --> 00:21:04,828
It's possible. Maybe better.

339
00:21:04,829 --> 00:21:06,030
I...

340
00:21:06,031 --> 00:21:07,567
I don't-- I don't know if...

341
00:21:07,568 --> 00:21:09,538
- I don't know if I can.
- [sniffles]

342
00:21:10,540 --> 00:21:15,917
Maybe this moment
is the best I can hope for.

343
00:21:15,918 --> 00:21:17,754
Well, then so be it.

344
00:21:18,723 --> 00:21:21,460
That has to be enough.

345
00:21:21,461 --> 00:21:23,533
♪ ♪

346
00:21:28,576 --> 00:21:29,811
[inhales]

347
00:21:29,812 --> 00:21:32,383
I love you so much.

348
00:21:42,136 --> 00:21:43,806
[sighs]

349
00:21:43,807 --> 00:21:45,877
♪ ♪

350
00:22:07,119 --> 00:22:09,123
[phone buzzes]

351
00:22:20,647 --> 00:22:22,517
[sets mug down]

352
00:22:22,518 --> 00:22:24,621
[typing on phone keyboard]

353
00:22:35,142 --> 00:22:36,779
♪ ♪

354
00:22:50,439 --> 00:22:52,476
[engine idling]

355
00:23:03,131 --> 00:23:04,834
What is this, Ed?

356
00:23:04,835 --> 00:23:06,538
Just come with me, Marshall.

357
00:23:06,539 --> 00:23:08,509
I joined a group.

358
00:23:08,510 --> 00:23:10,513
A men's group that helped me.

359
00:23:10,514 --> 00:23:12,584
♪ ♪

360
00:23:29,083 --> 00:23:30,853
[exhales]

361
00:23:43,145 --> 00:23:45,115
What, uh...

362
00:23:45,116 --> 00:23:46,552
what happened to the mullet?

363
00:23:47,587 --> 00:23:49,691
I had to face some hard truths.

364
00:23:49,692 --> 00:23:51,093
I cut it.

365
00:23:51,094 --> 00:23:52,797
All part of...

366
00:23:52,798 --> 00:23:55,168
cleaning up my act.

367
00:23:56,237 --> 00:23:59,009
What kind of group is this, exactly?

368
00:23:59,010 --> 00:24:00,880
Is it religious?

369
00:24:00,881 --> 00:24:02,249
No.

370
00:24:02,250 --> 00:24:04,721
Support and brotherhood.

371
00:24:04,722 --> 00:24:07,727
'Cause we all got one thing
in common.

372
00:24:07,728 --> 00:24:09,130
And that is?

373
00:24:15,677 --> 00:24:17,246
Let me ask you a question.

374
00:24:18,215 --> 00:24:19,651
Are you an angry man?

375
00:24:21,589 --> 00:24:23,893
Have I sensed that before?

376
00:24:27,901 --> 00:24:29,904
My anger...

377
00:24:29,905 --> 00:24:32,977
[chuckles]
...it is my salvation.

378
00:24:36,017 --> 00:24:38,054
♪ ♪

379
00:24:53,853 --> 00:24:56,157
- [engine shuts off]
- [doors open]

380
00:25:06,779 --> 00:25:08,014
[door shuts]

381
00:25:08,015 --> 00:25:08,982
[Smythe via speech tech]
<i>Gentlemen,</i>

382
00:25:08,983 --> 00:25:10,653
<i>tonight is special.</i>

383
00:25:10,654 --> 00:25:11,788
[water dripping]

384
00:25:11,789 --> 00:25:13,926
<i>A new friend is among us.</i>

385
00:25:20,072 --> 00:25:21,842
<i>One who is lost.</i>

386
00:25:21,843 --> 00:25:24,681
<i>It is our duty
to show him the way.</i>

387
00:25:24,682 --> 00:25:28,221
<i>We cannot be afraid
of offending people.</i>

388
00:25:28,222 --> 00:25:30,158
<i>That is the price of honesty.</i>

389
00:25:31,862 --> 00:25:34,233
<i>And tonight we will invite
our new friend</i>

390
00:25:34,234 --> 00:25:36,972
<i>to have an honest conversation.</i>

391
00:25:47,226 --> 00:25:49,062
<i>Hello, Ed.</i>

392
00:25:49,063 --> 00:25:51,868
<i>And hello, Professor.</i>

393
00:25:51,869 --> 00:25:54,808
<i>You get used to the mustiness
of the space.</i>

394
00:25:57,848 --> 00:26:00,620
<i>I am Dr. Milton Smythe.</i>

395
00:26:02,089 --> 00:26:04,193
<i>Ed has spoken often of you.</i>

396
00:26:04,194 --> 00:26:06,363
<i>We've chosen to interview you</i>

397
00:26:06,364 --> 00:26:08,769
<i>so we all can get to know you.</i>

398
00:26:10,740 --> 00:26:12,209
<i>Sit, gentlemen,</i>

399
00:26:12,210 --> 00:26:14,280
<i>so we can complete
the circle of truths.</i>

400
00:26:15,884 --> 00:26:19,056
<i>Welcome to the Mexicali Men's Club.</i>

401
00:26:29,711 --> 00:26:31,948
- [lamp buzzing softly]
- [water dripping]

402
00:26:31,949 --> 00:26:34,219
Professor, the, uh...

403
00:26:34,220 --> 00:26:35,890
the new pronouns--

404
00:26:35,891 --> 00:26:37,961
how do you feel about them?

405
00:26:42,002 --> 00:26:43,271
Yes.

406
00:26:43,272 --> 00:26:47,112
Your question
about the new pronouns.

407
00:26:47,881 --> 00:26:51,353
I-I have many students
who are trying

408
00:26:51,354 --> 00:26:55,028
to define and explore
their identities.

409
00:26:55,029 --> 00:26:56,765
Um...

410
00:26:56,766 --> 00:26:58,434
We have discussions,

411
00:26:58,435 --> 00:27:02,977
and I do ask them what pronouns
they'd like to use.

412
00:27:02,978 --> 00:27:04,914
But, you know, I-I-I will admit,

413
00:27:04,915 --> 00:27:07,319
I-I'm getting confused,

414
00:27:07,320 --> 00:27:10,258
trying to keep up
with the variants,

415
00:27:10,259 --> 00:27:13,331
such as xe...

416
00:27:13,332 --> 00:27:16,170
xe-xem...

417
00:27:16,171 --> 00:27:18,107
xyr. I, you know...

418
00:27:18,108 --> 00:27:19,978
I-I-- But I get it, you know...

419
00:27:19,979 --> 00:27:22,917
- [men] Boo. Boo.
- [Eddie] Hey, shut the fuck up.

420
00:27:22,918 --> 00:27:24,854
How 'bout we have some decency?

421
00:27:24,855 --> 00:27:25,923
[door closes]

422
00:27:25,924 --> 00:27:27,158
It is confusing,

423
00:27:27,159 --> 00:27:30,031
but it costs absolutely nothing

424
00:27:30,032 --> 00:27:32,770
to respect those
who don't follow your norms.

425
00:27:32,771 --> 00:27:34,206
So, if you can't
get on board with that,

426
00:27:34,207 --> 00:27:35,877
then just shut it.

427
00:27:37,948 --> 00:27:40,485
Now, Marshall, how do you see

428
00:27:40,486 --> 00:27:43,993
the role of men
in the culture, um, shifting?

429
00:27:45,262 --> 00:27:47,499
There's a revolution.

430
00:27:47,500 --> 00:27:49,202
A correction.

431
00:27:49,203 --> 00:27:51,942
And-and some of these
are too drastic. Uh...

432
00:27:51,943 --> 00:27:54,781
Witch hunts.
Men being accused of

433
00:27:54,782 --> 00:27:57,887
and convicted without evidence.

434
00:28:00,927 --> 00:28:02,262
Like you?

435
00:28:08,475 --> 00:28:10,445
Men and boys being marginalized.

436
00:28:10,446 --> 00:28:14,453
And-and now,
men who point them out

437
00:28:14,454 --> 00:28:17,459
are perceived as predatory

438
00:28:17,460 --> 00:28:20,465
and-and dangerous.

439
00:28:20,466 --> 00:28:22,202
[chair scrapes floor]

440
00:28:24,941 --> 00:28:27,980
As a result
of all these accusations,

441
00:28:27,981 --> 00:28:31,487
we're becoming
the defensive gender.

442
00:28:31,488 --> 00:28:35,194
Second-guessing our nature
to the degree that is cancerous,

443
00:28:35,195 --> 00:28:39,838
as though strong men
are frightening.

444
00:28:41,374 --> 00:28:43,177
But I think...

445
00:28:44,548 --> 00:28:48,855
I think weak men
are much more dangerous.

446
00:28:48,856 --> 00:28:52,395
- Yes. Yes.
- [cheering and applause]

447
00:28:52,396 --> 00:28:55,468
Yes. Yes.

448
00:28:59,377 --> 00:29:01,848
- [applause stops]
- Strength is everything.

449
00:29:01,849 --> 00:29:03,986
I mean, I remember
working at that mall

450
00:29:03,987 --> 00:29:06,223
wearing that damn
Cinnabon outfit

451
00:29:06,224 --> 00:29:07,526
all up and down those halls.

452
00:29:07,527 --> 00:29:09,396
I couldn't even
take it off on my break.

453
00:29:09,397 --> 00:29:12,135
You guys have no idea.
My lowest moment,

454
00:29:12,136 --> 00:29:13,972
even though
I was the night manager,

455
00:29:13,973 --> 00:29:15,909
was when I would walk by women

456
00:29:15,910 --> 00:29:18,882
and they would laugh in my face,
like I was nothing.

457
00:29:22,489 --> 00:29:24,226
I was just trying
to make a living.

458
00:29:25,429 --> 00:29:26,965
That crushed me.

459
00:29:27,734 --> 00:29:31,908
I had to learn not to just
be angry, you know?

460
00:29:31,909 --> 00:29:35,014
Because the stronger path--

461
00:29:35,015 --> 00:29:37,386
and I learned this
with the men in this room--

462
00:29:39,490 --> 00:29:42,029
...was to find
success and rigor.

463
00:29:44,033 --> 00:29:45,903
And that is hard.

464
00:29:45,904 --> 00:29:47,507
It is.

465
00:29:48,909 --> 00:29:50,144
It is.

466
00:29:50,145 --> 00:29:52,583
[Eddie]
Marshall, you were recently

467
00:29:52,584 --> 00:29:54,486
"Me Too'd" and cancelled,

468
00:29:54,487 --> 00:29:56,591
and-and I believe,

469
00:29:56,592 --> 00:29:59,630
and I know the founders
of this group believe,

470
00:29:59,631 --> 00:30:01,100
[door closes]

471
00:30:01,101 --> 00:30:03,270
...that you can't just
erase people

472
00:30:03,271 --> 00:30:05,208
who make mistakes.

473
00:30:05,209 --> 00:30:06,945
So how do we move forward?

474
00:30:06,946 --> 00:30:08,582
I am...

475
00:30:09,918 --> 00:30:12,155
...frankly struggling with this.

476
00:30:14,059 --> 00:30:17,465
I am angry that

477
00:30:17,466 --> 00:30:20,371
a consensual affair

478
00:30:20,372 --> 00:30:24,179
between adults
was used to hurt me.

479
00:30:24,180 --> 00:30:26,316
And I'm...

480
00:30:26,317 --> 00:30:28,320
I'm now sullied,

481
00:30:28,321 --> 00:30:30,659
- and my name is...
- Has been destroyed,

482
00:30:30,660 --> 00:30:33,330
and that sucks.

483
00:30:33,331 --> 00:30:37,072
Damaged, at the very least.

484
00:30:37,073 --> 00:30:40,244
But it's now up to me
to reclaim it somehow

485
00:30:40,245 --> 00:30:43,952
and not shy away from the fight

486
00:30:43,953 --> 00:30:45,455
to seek truth

487
00:30:45,456 --> 00:30:49,029
and insist on what is right.

488
00:30:50,232 --> 00:30:51,601
We're folding.

489
00:30:51,602 --> 00:30:54,339
Did you know that men

490
00:30:54,340 --> 00:30:58,214
die of suicide in far greater
numbers than women?

491
00:30:58,215 --> 00:31:00,251
[men murmuring]

492
00:31:01,454 --> 00:31:04,359
And I'm going to admit right now

493
00:31:04,360 --> 00:31:07,065
that I recently
attempted suicide.

494
00:31:08,669 --> 00:31:10,472
W-W-Where does it end?

495
00:31:11,575 --> 00:31:13,545
Perhaps the issue is that

496
00:31:13,546 --> 00:31:16,651
we need to return to a...

497
00:31:16,652 --> 00:31:20,391
a much more traditional
model for society.

498
00:31:20,392 --> 00:31:22,462
[cheering and applause]

499
00:31:29,678 --> 00:31:31,380
Whoa, whoa, whoa.

500
00:31:31,381 --> 00:31:34,486
Uh, yes, sir,
you have something to add?

501
00:31:35,488 --> 00:31:38,995
[Smythe via speech tech]
<i>A return to individual
responsibility,</i>

502
00:31:38,996 --> 00:31:40,999
<i>the importance of hierarchy</i>

503
00:31:41,000 --> 00:31:43,672
<i>and order,</i>

504
00:31:43,673 --> 00:31:45,241
<i>correct?</i>

505
00:31:46,678 --> 00:31:48,515
Yes.

506
00:31:48,516 --> 00:31:52,656
Yes, I believe that a way
to return to those principles

507
00:31:52,657 --> 00:31:55,128
is through consequences.

508
00:31:58,434 --> 00:32:01,440
Many of the men
in this room have said...

509
00:32:03,311 --> 00:32:07,151
...given everything
that's going on around us,

510
00:32:07,152 --> 00:32:10,491
the crime, the lawlessness,

511
00:32:10,492 --> 00:32:13,430
- the divisive culture...
- Mm.

512
00:32:13,431 --> 00:32:15,736
...that it feels like
we're living

513
00:32:15,737 --> 00:32:18,542
- in a goddamn horror movie.
- [men agreeing]

514
00:32:18,543 --> 00:32:21,013
- Am I right?
- [men] Yeah.

515
00:32:21,014 --> 00:32:22,382
Have you ever felt that?

516
00:32:24,053 --> 00:32:27,192
Perhaps it is time
to find the boogeyman

517
00:32:27,193 --> 00:32:29,296
and slaughter it,

518
00:32:29,297 --> 00:32:32,703
so that it never again
rises out of the lake

519
00:32:32,704 --> 00:32:34,707
or out of the fog

520
00:32:34,708 --> 00:32:39,416
or never again
tries to take what is ours.

521
00:32:43,224 --> 00:32:45,495
I think I speak for all of us...

522
00:32:47,366 --> 00:32:51,641
Welcome to the
Mexicali Men's Club, Professor.

523
00:32:51,642 --> 00:32:54,045
- [cheering and applause]
- [Eddie] We would love
for you to join us

524
00:32:54,046 --> 00:32:56,585
as we seek a way out
of this nightmare.

525
00:32:59,089 --> 00:33:01,293
Please stand
and be acknowledged.

526
00:33:27,680 --> 00:33:30,686
[cheering and applause continue]

527
00:33:43,512 --> 00:33:44,680
Maybe she heard about my dad

528
00:33:44,681 --> 00:33:46,350
and decided to do it
to herself, too.

529
00:33:46,351 --> 00:33:47,786
But she called me
on her way here.

530
00:33:47,787 --> 00:33:49,389
She checked herself in.
She said she was scared.

531
00:33:49,390 --> 00:33:50,659
Yes, that's what
Admissions said.

532
00:33:50,660 --> 00:33:52,563
Yeah, well, I tried to see her,

533
00:33:52,564 --> 00:33:54,700
but she doesn't want to see me
or anyone. Just you.

534
00:33:54,701 --> 00:33:56,270
Merritt, how are you?

535
00:33:56,271 --> 00:33:58,274
Both parents in extreme crisis--

536
00:33:58,275 --> 00:33:59,677
this is a lot to handle.

537
00:33:59,678 --> 00:34:02,516
Dr. Witticomb, I'm okay.

538
00:34:02,517 --> 00:34:04,654
I just need you to figure out
what's happening to her.

539
00:34:04,655 --> 00:34:06,090
Please.

540
00:34:18,849 --> 00:34:20,819
I think I'm dead.

541
00:34:22,322 --> 00:34:23,759
Really dead.

542
00:34:25,195 --> 00:34:26,665
[Witticomb]
Literally dead?

543
00:34:28,334 --> 00:34:30,639
You're the only person I trust
to confirm it.

544
00:34:32,175 --> 00:34:34,446
The nurses let me see
my blood pressure

545
00:34:34,447 --> 00:34:37,251
and my pulse, but...
I didn't believe it.

546
00:34:37,252 --> 00:34:39,089
What happened, Lois?

547
00:34:39,858 --> 00:34:42,630
It all came together, a shock.

548
00:34:44,333 --> 00:34:46,771
The world is not real.

549
00:34:48,776 --> 00:34:50,411
And I've crossed over.

550
00:34:54,621 --> 00:34:56,456
I thought about

551
00:34:56,457 --> 00:34:59,329
cutting my carotid
with a pair of poultry shears.

552
00:34:59,330 --> 00:35:01,333
But you didn't.

553
00:35:01,334 --> 00:35:03,337
So, that's good.

554
00:35:03,338 --> 00:35:04,607
What started it?

555
00:35:04,608 --> 00:35:07,478
I realized
I never really woke up

556
00:35:07,479 --> 00:35:10,451
from that coma, did I?

557
00:35:11,588 --> 00:35:15,328
I am in some otherworld.

558
00:35:17,199 --> 00:35:18,568
The otherworld.

559
00:35:19,336 --> 00:35:21,373
And you think
I'm not real either?

560
00:35:21,374 --> 00:35:23,477
I've accompanied you here?

561
00:35:23,478 --> 00:35:25,148
Maybe to take you back?

562
00:35:26,350 --> 00:35:28,621
You are very much alive.
Listen to me.

563
00:35:28,622 --> 00:35:30,625
There's a neuropsychiatric
condition,

564
00:35:30,626 --> 00:35:32,395
Cotard's syndrome,

565
00:35:32,396 --> 00:35:35,769
and what it is, is you just
simply think you're dead,

566
00:35:35,770 --> 00:35:37,639
or your organs are putrefying,

567
00:35:37,640 --> 00:35:39,643
or the world is an illusion,

568
00:35:39,644 --> 00:35:41,881
but mostly you're dead.

569
00:35:43,652 --> 00:35:46,858
It is a reaction to
going through too much to bear.

570
00:35:49,363 --> 00:35:51,233
Now, s-stay with me.

571
00:35:51,234 --> 00:35:52,469
What triggered it?

572
00:35:53,639 --> 00:35:55,208
First thing?

573
00:35:58,414 --> 00:36:01,621
It was... [chuckles]
I couldn't believe it.

574
00:36:01,622 --> 00:36:05,261
<i>Marshall asked me to be a part
of some sort of ménage</i>

575
00:36:05,262 --> 00:36:07,833
with him and his girlfriend.

576
00:36:07,834 --> 00:36:09,603
Utterly surreal.

577
00:36:09,604 --> 00:36:13,210
- Mm.
- I'm very fluid.

578
00:36:13,979 --> 00:36:16,617
But it's the new paradigm.

579
00:36:16,618 --> 00:36:18,688
The man I knew
would have never done that,

580
00:36:18,689 --> 00:36:19,924
<i>nor would Redd.</i>

581
00:36:19,925 --> 00:36:21,561
It's the otherworld.

582
00:36:21,562 --> 00:36:23,497
A kind of hell, made up

583
00:36:23,498 --> 00:36:26,904
of sick jokes so elaborate...
[scoffs]

584
00:36:26,905 --> 00:36:29,543
...nothing living
could construct them.

585
00:36:29,544 --> 00:36:32,816
And what else? What else
made you think you were dead?

586
00:36:32,817 --> 00:36:34,954
My doctor.

587
00:36:34,955 --> 00:36:37,258
Dr. Charles Mayhew.

588
00:36:38,896 --> 00:36:40,231
[scoffs]

589
00:36:41,333 --> 00:36:44,774
He was having orgies in my room.

590
00:36:44,775 --> 00:36:46,544
[woman moaning]

591
00:36:46,545 --> 00:36:48,815
[Lois]
<i>I could hear it. I even</i>

592
00:36:48,816 --> 00:36:50,451
<i>saw some of it</i>

593
00:36:50,452 --> 00:36:51,721
through the curtains
around my bed.

594
00:36:51,722 --> 00:36:53,792
Like flashes of a nightmare.

595
00:36:53,793 --> 00:36:57,398
<i>My doctor,
a supposed man of virtue,</i>

596
00:36:57,399 --> 00:36:59,870
was also an agent of chaos.

597
00:36:59,871 --> 00:37:02,676
<i>So I confronted him.</i>

598
00:37:02,677 --> 00:37:04,580
Having sex parties?

599
00:37:05,381 --> 00:37:07,753
These are exactly the kinds
of tricks that our mind

600
00:37:07,754 --> 00:37:09,890
plays on us when we emerge
from these coma states.

601
00:37:09,891 --> 00:37:13,330
There are many
different hallucinatory

602
00:37:13,331 --> 00:37:14,767
electrical storms
that can occur.

603
00:37:14,768 --> 00:37:16,436
I mean, certainly
you don't actually believe

604
00:37:16,437 --> 00:37:18,842
that I'm having orgies in here?

605
00:37:18,843 --> 00:37:21,714
Yes, I fucking do.

606
00:37:21,715 --> 00:37:23,985
I do believe it. Mm-hmm.

607
00:37:23,986 --> 00:37:25,722
You know why?

608
00:37:25,723 --> 00:37:28,995
Because you are not
who or what you say you are.

609
00:37:28,996 --> 00:37:30,498
It's some sort of

610
00:37:30,499 --> 00:37:32,468
- demonic rite--
- I really wish

611
00:37:32,469 --> 00:37:33,771
that you understood

612
00:37:33,772 --> 00:37:35,341
how even the suggestion
of impropriety

613
00:37:35,342 --> 00:37:36,443
would not be good for me
in this day and age,

614
00:37:36,444 --> 00:37:37,913
even if nobody believed you,

615
00:37:37,914 --> 00:37:40,017
which, for the record,
they won't. Nobody will.

616
00:37:40,018 --> 00:37:43,457
They simply won't.
I fucking saved your life.

617
00:37:47,533 --> 00:37:49,570
I know what I heard.

618
00:37:50,673 --> 00:37:52,308
I heard it.

619
00:37:52,309 --> 00:37:54,613
Mm. I also recall,

620
00:37:54,614 --> 00:37:56,316
in my coma state,

621
00:37:56,317 --> 00:37:59,857
a story about a young girl
who got impregnated

622
00:37:59,858 --> 00:38:01,727
against her will

623
00:38:01,728 --> 00:38:04,533
while she was unconscious.

624
00:38:04,534 --> 00:38:05,902
You did that, didn't you?

625
00:38:05,903 --> 00:38:07,873
- Uh... So, fuck you.
- You did it.

626
00:38:07,874 --> 00:38:10,377
Uh, and I never did
any of those vile things.

627
00:38:10,378 --> 00:38:13,585
In fact, I'm the one
who saved your life. Um...

628
00:38:15,421 --> 00:38:17,760
God, I feel so fucking sorry
for your husband.

629
00:38:18,829 --> 00:38:20,565
You're an impossible woman.

630
00:38:20,566 --> 00:38:22,401
You're insufferable,
and you're so

631
00:38:22,402 --> 00:38:25,876
judgmental of him and me
and, I'm assuming, all men.

632
00:38:25,877 --> 00:38:28,882
You are corrosive
to your fucking core, Lois.

633
00:38:29,651 --> 00:38:33,658
Multiple times, your husband
came up to me and...

634
00:38:33,659 --> 00:38:35,060
he said something
to the effect of,

635
00:38:35,061 --> 00:38:36,797
"Hey, you know,
just between you and me,

636
00:38:36,798 --> 00:38:39,102
"couldn't you just
accidentally bump the switch?

637
00:38:39,103 --> 00:38:40,805
"Turn off the machine
that's keeping her alive

638
00:38:40,806 --> 00:38:42,576
and send the old vegetable
on up to heaven?"

639
00:38:42,577 --> 00:38:44,112
And I always thought that
the guy was fucking with me,

640
00:38:44,113 --> 00:38:46,550
but now I realize
that he was so insistent

641
00:38:46,551 --> 00:38:48,387
on wanting you to fucking die

642
00:38:48,388 --> 00:38:51,126
because you are such
a massive fucking bitch.

643
00:38:51,127 --> 00:38:54,432
I see now,
very clearly, that you

644
00:38:54,433 --> 00:38:56,403
would not have
ascended into heaven,

645
00:38:56,404 --> 00:38:58,407
but rather descended into hell.

646
00:38:58,408 --> 00:39:02,048
<i>Because it is a place that you
create for yourself, every day</i>

647
00:39:02,049 --> 00:39:04,787
<i>and every hour
with your arrogance</i>

648
00:39:04,788 --> 00:39:07,425
and your confident
false superiority.

649
00:39:07,426 --> 00:39:10,532
It is a hell of your own making
in which you burn yourself

650
00:39:10,533 --> 00:39:13,070
and everyone else

651
00:39:13,071 --> 00:39:14,974
who you come into contact with.

652
00:39:14,975 --> 00:39:18,080
This is not the real world.

653
00:39:18,081 --> 00:39:19,850
<i>This is the otherworld,</i>

654
00:39:19,851 --> 00:39:22,790
and I... I am dead.

655
00:39:24,026 --> 00:39:25,696
And he's right.

656
00:39:27,132 --> 00:39:28,635
[sniffles]

657
00:39:28,636 --> 00:39:30,437
I...

658
00:39:30,438 --> 00:39:33,377
created this hell
I am in somehow.

659
00:39:34,647 --> 00:39:36,483
[Witticomb]
Lois, I promise you, this is

660
00:39:36,484 --> 00:39:39,456
temporary. Please, trust me.

661
00:39:40,726 --> 00:39:42,461
Tell me,

662
00:39:42,462 --> 00:39:45,434
what else convinced you
you were in the otherworld?

663
00:39:46,538 --> 00:39:49,075
The only reason I can confess...

664
00:39:50,913 --> 00:39:52,916
...is 'cause I'm dead.

665
00:39:52,917 --> 00:39:54,720
I killed someone.

666
00:39:57,960 --> 00:40:01,534
A terrible man
beating women. Megan,

667
00:40:01,535 --> 00:40:04,506
the one who has my job, her man.

668
00:40:04,507 --> 00:40:06,611
Cold blood.

669
00:40:07,680 --> 00:40:09,015
An execution, really.

670
00:40:09,016 --> 00:40:10,117
- [gunshot]
- [body thuds]

671
00:40:11,186 --> 00:40:13,123
[Witticomb]
<i>Where's the body, Lois?</i>

672
00:40:13,124 --> 00:40:15,160
<i>Did you... dispose of it?</i>

673
00:40:15,161 --> 00:40:16,931
[Lois]
<i>See? S-S-S-See, this is
what I'm saying.</i>

674
00:40:16,932 --> 00:40:19,068
<i>This is where it gets strange</i>

675
00:40:19,069 --> 00:40:21,172
and odd, okay? I left the scene.

676
00:40:21,173 --> 00:40:22,642
I told Megan
I would take care of it

677
00:40:22,643 --> 00:40:24,780
'cause I needed
to get my head together.

678
00:40:24,781 --> 00:40:26,917
- I needed to get supplies
and stuff, you know?
- Supplies?

679
00:40:26,918 --> 00:40:30,057
Y-Yes. Um, shovel,
trash bag, lime.

680
00:40:30,058 --> 00:40:31,927
I wasn't in my right mind.

681
00:40:31,928 --> 00:40:34,065
<i>I was so stunned
I lost track of time.</i>

682
00:40:34,066 --> 00:40:36,904
I don't even know how long
I had been driving.

683
00:40:36,905 --> 00:40:39,042
<i>And then I got my shit together,</i>

684
00:40:39,043 --> 00:40:40,812
<i>and I said, "No. No, no, no.</i>

685
00:40:40,813 --> 00:40:42,883
<i>"You are not going
to cover this up because</i>

686
00:40:42,884 --> 00:40:44,920
this was self-defense."

687
00:40:44,921 --> 00:40:46,557
This was a bad man,

688
00:40:46,558 --> 00:40:48,661
another bad man.

689
00:40:48,662 --> 00:40:50,497
I said,
"Let me get my shit together

690
00:40:50,498 --> 00:40:52,669
and go back and face
what I have done."

691
00:40:52,670 --> 00:40:53,905
And?

692
00:40:56,978 --> 00:40:59,550
Megan was gone.
The body was gone.

693
00:40:59,551 --> 00:41:01,954
The entire room
was scrubbed clean.

694
00:41:01,955 --> 00:41:03,090
<i>No body, no crime.</i>

695
00:41:03,091 --> 00:41:04,225
<i>And I'm thinking,</i>

696
00:41:04,226 --> 00:41:05,562
<i>"The cleaners have been here,</i>

697
00:41:05,563 --> 00:41:07,666
<i>and they covered all this up."</i>

698
00:41:07,667 --> 00:41:09,703
- The cleaners?
- People

699
00:41:09,704 --> 00:41:12,208
<i>who specialize
in the art of the cover-up.</i>

700
00:41:12,209 --> 00:41:13,845
<i>Erasing traces of blood,</i>

701
00:41:13,846 --> 00:41:15,515
<i>viscera, brain smear,</i>

702
00:41:15,516 --> 00:41:17,084
<i>- what have you.</i>
- [Witticomb] <i>Such as?</i>

703
00:41:17,085 --> 00:41:18,654
[Lois]
<i>The best one I know
in the vicinity</i>

704
00:41:18,655 --> 00:41:19,857
is Glorious McKall.

705
00:41:19,858 --> 00:41:22,094
I mean, she's...
she was an acquaintance.

706
00:41:22,095 --> 00:41:24,165
So what did you do?

707
00:41:26,704 --> 00:41:28,708
I went silent.

708
00:41:28,709 --> 00:41:30,845
I went deep.

709
00:41:30,846 --> 00:41:32,949
<i>I followed Megan in my car.</i>

710
00:41:32,950 --> 00:41:34,252
<i>And guess what I found?</i>

711
00:41:34,253 --> 00:41:35,956
- [Witticomb] <i>Hmm?
- Proof.</i>

712
00:41:42,603 --> 00:41:45,041
♪ ♪

713
00:41:46,611 --> 00:41:48,614
And I confronted her ass.

714
00:41:48,615 --> 00:41:50,685
What are you looking at?

715
00:41:52,623 --> 00:41:54,626
I got you, you sneaky bitch.

716
00:41:54,627 --> 00:41:56,697
- Oh, yes.
- Lois?

717
00:41:56,698 --> 00:41:57,833
What's going on? You seem--

718
00:41:57,834 --> 00:41:59,135
Unhinged?

719
00:41:59,136 --> 00:42:01,006
Ding, ding, ding.

720
00:42:06,049 --> 00:42:07,986
I killed him

721
00:42:07,987 --> 00:42:09,923
to help you out.

722
00:42:09,924 --> 00:42:12,194
And then you move the body,
you clean up my mess,

723
00:42:12,195 --> 00:42:14,265
and you don't say anything?

724
00:42:16,638 --> 00:42:18,608
Glorious McKall would do that.

725
00:42:18,609 --> 00:42:20,879
She would take her victims
and grind them up

726
00:42:20,880 --> 00:42:22,047
and feed them to her hogs.

727
00:42:22,048 --> 00:42:23,851
Is that what you had her do?

728
00:42:23,852 --> 00:42:24,920
Lois...

729
00:42:24,921 --> 00:42:26,223
sit down.

730
00:42:28,628 --> 00:42:30,765
I don't know
what you're talking about.

731
00:42:30,766 --> 00:42:33,671
- I saw you with her.
- With who?

732
00:42:33,672 --> 00:42:35,040
Glorious McKall.

733
00:42:35,041 --> 00:42:36,744
I saw you talking to her.

734
00:42:36,745 --> 00:42:38,280
Getting her to clean up my mess.

735
00:42:38,281 --> 00:42:40,952
What I want to know is
why you didn't say anything.

736
00:42:40,953 --> 00:42:42,188
- Why?
- Lois...

737
00:42:42,189 --> 00:42:43,925
I did meet with Glorious

738
00:42:43,926 --> 00:42:45,327
to help her.

739
00:42:45,328 --> 00:42:47,331
A member of her crew was
having a fentanyl moment,

740
00:42:47,332 --> 00:42:48,801
she was very emotional about it.

741
00:42:48,802 --> 00:42:50,304
This man was like her son.

742
00:42:50,305 --> 00:42:52,141
I've known her for several
cases, so I met with her.

743
00:42:52,142 --> 00:42:53,644
I offered resources.

744
00:42:53,645 --> 00:42:54,913
That's what you saw.

745
00:42:54,914 --> 00:42:56,349
Where's the body?

746
00:42:56,350 --> 00:42:57,919
Where's your man?

747
00:42:57,920 --> 00:42:59,188
My man?

748
00:42:59,189 --> 00:43:00,190
Justin.

749
00:43:00,191 --> 00:43:02,194
I haven't seen him in weeks.

750
00:43:02,195 --> 00:43:04,098
I don't know.

751
00:43:04,099 --> 00:43:05,969
Lois, listen to me.

752
00:43:05,970 --> 00:43:08,140
You're messed up.

753
00:43:09,376 --> 00:43:11,046
You need help.

754
00:43:11,981 --> 00:43:13,350
Let me help you.

755
00:43:15,221 --> 00:43:17,792
[Lois]
<i>She said I needed sleep.</i>

756
00:43:17,793 --> 00:43:19,295
<i>Care.</i>

757
00:43:20,832 --> 00:43:23,638
As if I could
accept that anymore.

758
00:43:23,639 --> 00:43:25,942
[laughs]

759
00:43:25,943 --> 00:43:27,946
In that moment...

760
00:43:27,947 --> 00:43:30,083
the chaos and the madness,

761
00:43:30,084 --> 00:43:32,054
it all flashed together,

762
00:43:32,055 --> 00:43:34,092
and I realized...

763
00:43:37,098 --> 00:43:39,235
...I have crossed over.

764
00:43:39,236 --> 00:43:41,306
I-- I'm in the place...

765
00:43:43,377 --> 00:43:47,117
...that you go to
in the afterlife,

766
00:43:47,118 --> 00:43:50,758
and I'm being forced
to live in my sorrow,

767
00:43:50,759 --> 00:43:53,296
my misdeeds...

768
00:43:53,297 --> 00:43:54,867
and my wreckage.

769
00:43:55,902 --> 00:43:57,404
- [taps on table]
- This.

770
00:43:57,405 --> 00:44:00,077
This is...

771
00:44:00,078 --> 00:44:02,849
my hell I am forced to live in.

772
00:44:02,850 --> 00:44:05,254
And you...

773
00:44:05,255 --> 00:44:07,859
you are just a clever demon,

774
00:44:07,860 --> 00:44:10,865
who's sent to torture me
with comfort.

775
00:44:10,866 --> 00:44:13,771
Lois, that's not true.

776
00:44:13,772 --> 00:44:16,276
I care about you,
your well-being.

777
00:44:16,277 --> 00:44:18,982
And I think you know that
to be true.

778
00:44:33,043 --> 00:44:35,180
And then there's
the final reason

779
00:44:35,181 --> 00:44:38,186
that I have
a hard time accepting

780
00:44:38,187 --> 00:44:41,159
that I'm back in any kind
of literal reality.

781
00:44:41,160 --> 00:44:43,731
It's the last piece

782
00:44:43,732 --> 00:44:45,735
of the jigsaw puzzle.

783
00:44:45,736 --> 00:44:48,173
[Witticomb]
The piece right in the center,

784
00:44:48,174 --> 00:44:49,910
connected to everything else?

785
00:44:49,911 --> 00:44:51,212
[Merritt]
That's the middle piece.

786
00:44:51,213 --> 00:44:52,782
Goes in the center.

787
00:44:52,783 --> 00:44:54,152
It connects everything.

788
00:44:55,956 --> 00:44:57,926
You don't miss a detail, do you?

789
00:44:58,962 --> 00:45:01,099
There was a quintuple homicide,

790
00:45:01,100 --> 00:45:02,936
all under one roof.

791
00:45:02,937 --> 00:45:05,040
A whole family.

792
00:45:05,041 --> 00:45:07,211
The mother, the father,

793
00:45:07,212 --> 00:45:09,215
the baby,

794
00:45:09,216 --> 00:45:11,052
the damn pot on stove.

795
00:45:12,255 --> 00:45:15,460
Just like my dream, it happened.

796
00:45:15,461 --> 00:45:17,097
Where did it happen?
Was it local?

797
00:45:17,098 --> 00:45:19,201
I didn't read about it
in the news or online.

798
00:45:19,202 --> 00:45:20,838
Media blackout.

799
00:45:20,839 --> 00:45:22,207
Procedure.

800
00:45:22,208 --> 00:45:23,443
Lois, what are you getting at?

801
00:45:26,283 --> 00:45:28,821
A copycat killer,

802
00:45:28,822 --> 00:45:30,958
who copied my dreams.

803
00:45:30,959 --> 00:45:33,363
And the only person

804
00:45:33,364 --> 00:45:35,467
who could have done that...

805
00:45:37,005 --> 00:45:38,875
...has access to my files.

806
00:45:39,677 --> 00:45:41,914
You know what the fuck
I'm getting at.

807
00:45:46,958 --> 00:45:49,261
[chuckles softly]

808
00:45:49,262 --> 00:45:52,401
Lois, you are a singular

809
00:45:52,402 --> 00:45:54,005
and unique case.

810
00:45:54,006 --> 00:45:55,508
The interviews we did
following your emergence

811
00:45:55,509 --> 00:45:57,812
from the coma state,
these recordings,

812
00:45:57,813 --> 00:45:59,281
they are
immensely valuable resources

813
00:45:59,282 --> 00:46:01,219
to those in neuroscience,

814
00:46:01,220 --> 00:46:02,889
neurocognition, philosophy.

815
00:46:02,890 --> 00:46:04,392
I told you this when we began.

816
00:46:04,393 --> 00:46:07,532
You signed, your entire family
signed waivers,

817
00:46:07,533 --> 00:46:11,339
giving us permission to record
and document this process

818
00:46:11,340 --> 00:46:15,080
and share them internally for
scientific research purposes.

819
00:46:15,081 --> 00:46:17,852
How many people,

820
00:46:17,853 --> 00:46:19,488
Doctor,

821
00:46:19,489 --> 00:46:21,827
have access to my file?

822
00:46:23,197 --> 00:46:24,900
- Who?
- Hundreds.

823
00:46:24,901 --> 00:46:26,503
- How many people?
- Your daughter,

824
00:46:26,504 --> 00:46:28,139
for one, a medical professional

825
00:46:28,140 --> 00:46:30,177
with access
to the medi-platform.

826
00:46:30,178 --> 00:46:32,849
Anybody who has access to your
computer or your passwords.

827
00:46:32,850 --> 00:46:34,886
Your husband could be a suspect.

828
00:46:34,887 --> 00:46:36,890
We could write
an exhaustive list, but

829
00:46:36,891 --> 00:46:39,896
there's another,
more likely suspect, no?

830
00:46:39,897 --> 00:46:42,167
Someone...

831
00:46:42,168 --> 00:46:44,238
somebody who knows
these grotesqueries

832
00:46:44,239 --> 00:46:46,242
better than anyone.

833
00:46:46,243 --> 00:46:48,080
You.

834
00:46:49,884 --> 00:46:52,856
You just said moments ago
that you murdered a man

835
00:46:52,857 --> 00:46:54,893
"in cold blood,
execution style."

836
00:46:54,894 --> 00:46:56,563
We are talking about a person

837
00:46:56,564 --> 00:46:58,466
that killed a baby.

838
00:46:58,467 --> 00:47:00,538
You think I'm capable of that?

839
00:47:00,539 --> 00:47:02,341
Well, let's examine this
like a detective:

840
00:47:02,342 --> 00:47:05,213
rationally,
scientifically, logically.

841
00:47:05,214 --> 00:47:08,019
You recount losing time,

842
00:47:08,020 --> 00:47:11,492
disassociating,
seeing things that aren't there.

843
00:47:11,493 --> 00:47:14,198
You spent years denying

844
00:47:14,199 --> 00:47:16,068
how sick your job made you.

845
00:47:16,069 --> 00:47:17,438
I've seen your cases.

846
00:47:17,439 --> 00:47:19,910
A woman in a world
of crime and killers

847
00:47:19,911 --> 00:47:23,183
trying, almost by herself,
to manifest justice?

848
00:47:23,184 --> 00:47:26,422
All alone?

849
00:47:26,423 --> 00:47:29,328
Is not that the motive
of Grotesquerie?

850
00:47:29,329 --> 00:47:32,367
Is he not a machination
of your own mind?

851
00:47:32,368 --> 00:47:33,938
Didn't you murder that--

852
00:47:33,939 --> 00:47:36,042
Stop.

853
00:47:39,950 --> 00:47:41,587
I am still in it.

854
00:47:43,357 --> 00:47:45,929
I am still in a coma.

855
00:47:47,131 --> 00:47:50,003
Stuck in an endless circle.

856
00:47:52,241 --> 00:47:54,111
There is established wisdom
in my field.

857
00:47:54,112 --> 00:47:57,017
Do not tell a delusional person
they are living in a delusion.

858
00:47:58,153 --> 00:48:00,157
But I'm gonna
level with you, Lois.

859
00:48:01,961 --> 00:48:03,964
I don't think
you murdered that family.

860
00:48:03,965 --> 00:48:05,668
I don't think there was
a quintuple murder.

861
00:48:05,669 --> 00:48:06,670
You are awake.

862
00:48:06,671 --> 00:48:08,473
The world is real.

863
00:48:08,474 --> 00:48:10,511
But you are hearing and seeing
things that are not--

864
00:48:10,512 --> 00:48:12,982
If it's all in my head,

865
00:48:12,983 --> 00:48:15,387
why all the religious imagery?

866
00:48:15,388 --> 00:48:17,992
Because you convinced yourself
you were the last good person

867
00:48:17,993 --> 00:48:20,397
in the world: a cross between
a saint, a crusader,

868
00:48:20,398 --> 00:48:22,501
a holy warrior, a prophet.

869
00:48:22,502 --> 00:48:25,006
When all you are,
all you were,

870
00:48:25,007 --> 00:48:28,379
in reality,
is a small-town detective

871
00:48:28,380 --> 00:48:31,386
in a very, very dark time.

872
00:48:35,461 --> 00:48:37,130
[clicks tongue]

873
00:48:37,131 --> 00:48:39,202
I'm gonna go to my room now.

874
00:48:40,539 --> 00:48:41,607
Thank you.

875
00:48:55,635 --> 00:48:57,037
[keys jangling]

876
00:48:57,038 --> 00:48:58,641
[creaking]

877
00:49:02,081 --> 00:49:04,118
♪ ♪

878
00:49:20,785 --> 00:49:23,023
♪ ♪

879
00:49:28,233 --> 00:49:30,270
[locks buzzing]

880
00:49:38,655 --> 00:49:40,558
[keys jangling]

881
00:49:42,629 --> 00:49:44,733
[key turning in lock]

882
00:49:44,734 --> 00:49:46,436
[creaking]

883
00:50:03,303 --> 00:50:05,440
[Megan crying]

884
00:50:15,160 --> 00:50:16,362
[sniffles]

885
00:50:16,363 --> 00:50:18,433
[sobbing loudly]

886
00:50:30,290 --> 00:50:32,795
Again, I need to apologize.

887
00:50:32,796 --> 00:50:35,668
For falling apart back there
where you were getting care.

888
00:50:35,669 --> 00:50:38,106
And I hate myself for coming
to you and asking for help

889
00:50:38,107 --> 00:50:39,308
when you're clearly
in the middle

890
00:50:39,309 --> 00:50:40,745
of a mental health crisis.

891
00:50:42,114 --> 00:50:44,586
Then why did you?

892
00:50:47,425 --> 00:50:49,596
When they called me
to this crime scene...

893
00:50:49,597 --> 00:50:51,198
[swallows loudly]

894
00:50:51,199 --> 00:50:53,269
Sorry, it's a lot.
It's-it's worse for me,

895
00:50:53,270 --> 00:50:54,739
even than
the recent family murder

896
00:50:54,740 --> 00:50:56,510
with remains in a boiling pot.

897
00:50:56,511 --> 00:50:58,514
Worse how?

898
00:50:58,515 --> 00:51:00,384
- It's--
- I-I've been here before.

899
00:51:01,587 --> 00:51:02,755
It's bigger.

900
00:51:02,756 --> 00:51:05,427
It's... more calculated.

901
00:51:05,428 --> 00:51:07,164
It's immense...

902
00:51:07,165 --> 00:51:08,834
in its scope.
Beyond me, I think.

903
00:51:08,835 --> 00:51:11,573
And because I know some
of these people slaughtered.

904
00:51:13,845 --> 00:51:15,480
Lois...

905
00:51:16,449 --> 00:51:17,885
...you-you-y...

906
00:51:17,886 --> 00:51:19,488
you know some of them, too.

907
00:51:23,865 --> 00:51:25,535
I'm done.

908
00:51:27,338 --> 00:51:29,441
- I'm done.
- Lois. Lois.

909
00:51:29,442 --> 00:51:31,580
Please. We need you.

910
00:51:31,581 --> 00:51:33,316
I need you.

911
00:51:33,317 --> 00:51:35,688
- None of this is real anyway.
- Lois, it is real.

912
00:51:35,689 --> 00:51:36,823
[whispering]
It is real.

913
00:51:36,824 --> 00:51:38,326
I promise.

914
00:51:38,327 --> 00:51:41,533
What's here... is... is evil.

915
00:51:41,534 --> 00:51:44,138
Do I believe in the devil?
No, I do not.

916
00:51:44,139 --> 00:51:46,442
What I believe is here today,
these...

917
00:51:46,443 --> 00:51:49,314
these astounding murders
by Grotesquerie,

918
00:51:49,315 --> 00:51:51,687
have been created by someone
who understands

919
00:51:51,688 --> 00:51:53,524
that fear

920
00:51:53,525 --> 00:51:55,561
is what
the devils who walk amongst us,

921
00:51:55,562 --> 00:51:58,867
the mortal devils we all know,
created

922
00:51:58,868 --> 00:52:01,139
so we could stay in line.

923
00:52:03,578 --> 00:52:05,581
You are not dead.

924
00:52:06,784 --> 00:52:08,721
You are not dead.

925
00:52:08,722 --> 00:52:10,558
You, here, right now--

926
00:52:10,559 --> 00:52:13,798
promise you, I promise,
I promise, this is real.

927
00:52:15,668 --> 00:52:17,672
[quietly]
You did shoot my boyfriend.

928
00:52:17,673 --> 00:52:20,845
I did call Glorious McCall
to get rid of the body.

929
00:52:20,846 --> 00:52:22,682
That happened.

930
00:52:22,683 --> 00:52:24,485
Sorry. I'm sorry.

931
00:52:24,486 --> 00:52:26,355
I'm sorry.

932
00:52:26,356 --> 00:52:27,859
Why...

933
00:52:27,860 --> 00:52:29,428
did you lie to me?

934
00:52:29,429 --> 00:52:31,800
'Cause I had to protect you
from my mistake.

935
00:52:33,671 --> 00:52:36,242
[sighs]

936
00:52:36,243 --> 00:52:38,446
Please.

937
00:52:38,447 --> 00:52:39,983
[inhales]

938
00:52:39,984 --> 00:52:42,722
[sighs]

939
00:52:45,027 --> 00:52:46,830
Show me.

940
00:52:54,546 --> 00:52:57,184
♪ ♪

941
00:53:00,692 --> 00:53:02,729
[door opens]

942
00:53:03,698 --> 00:53:05,400
[door closes]

943
00:53:05,401 --> 00:53:07,772
♪ ♪

944
00:53:37,799 --> 00:53:40,805
♪ ♪

945
00:53:54,967 --> 00:53:57,337
The Jesus figure. He...

946
00:53:58,608 --> 00:54:00,511
He touched me.

947
00:54:00,512 --> 00:54:02,615
My heart.

948
00:54:04,720 --> 00:54:06,523
He moved you?

949
00:54:07,893 --> 00:54:09,996
He literally touched my heart.

950
00:54:09,997 --> 00:54:12,602
With defibrillator paddles.

951
00:54:12,603 --> 00:54:17,444
Shocked me back to life
from a very...

952
00:54:17,445 --> 00:54:18,948
dark sleep.

953
00:54:19,917 --> 00:54:21,987
Or so I thought.

954
00:54:25,494 --> 00:54:27,030
Who are the rest
of these people, though?

955
00:54:27,031 --> 00:54:29,468
- Homeless?
- Unhoused.

956
00:54:31,507 --> 00:54:33,075
I was only able to identify

957
00:54:33,076 --> 00:54:35,013
one other person.
Someone I knew vaguely.

958
00:54:35,014 --> 00:54:37,685
Mary Colsby.

959
00:54:37,686 --> 00:54:38,854
Who is she?

960
00:54:38,855 --> 00:54:40,490
[Megan]
She was many things.

961
00:54:40,491 --> 00:54:41,860
Most recently, the woman

962
00:54:41,861 --> 00:54:43,998
who accused your husband
Marshall of assault.

963
00:54:45,668 --> 00:54:47,872
♪ ♪

964
00:54:47,873 --> 00:54:49,374
[inhales deeply]

965
00:54:49,375 --> 00:54:51,747
My God. [sighs]

966
00:54:55,487 --> 00:54:57,625
All right, people!

967
00:54:57,626 --> 00:55:01,633
Bag every piece of evidence!

968
00:55:01,634 --> 00:55:03,637
Print every surface!

969
00:55:03,638 --> 00:55:06,643
Do your jobs and do them well.

970
00:55:06,644 --> 00:55:09,849
Meet me in my old office
in one hour.

971
00:55:09,850 --> 00:55:11,620
- You're gonna help us?
- Who else is gonna solve

972
00:55:11,621 --> 00:55:13,389
this case, Jack? Her?

973
00:55:13,390 --> 00:55:15,794
Lois, that's unkind
and fucking unnecessary.

974
00:55:15,795 --> 00:55:18,333
And it's also the goddamn truth.

975
00:55:19,703 --> 00:55:22,675
And we need to start telling
each other the truth.

976
00:55:22,676 --> 00:55:24,044
Huh?

977
00:55:25,047 --> 00:55:27,083
Jack, I know who did this.

978
00:55:27,084 --> 00:55:29,522
♪ ♪

979
00:55:30,525 --> 00:55:31,994
One hour.

980
00:55:33,129 --> 00:55:35,367
♪ ♪

981
00:55:58,948 --> 00:56:01,954
Captioned by
Media Access Group at WGBH
access.wgbh.org

982
00:56:10,905 --> 00:56:12,942
♪ ♪

983
00:56:43,169 --> 00:56:45,173
♪ ♪

984
00:57:15,067 --> 00:57:46,162
♪ ♪


